Anika Meier. You’ve worked with language, identity, and systems for a long time. What initially drew you to extended conversations with a language model, in this case ChatGPT, as a medium?
Kevin Abosch. My interest is in what happens to me when I’m faced with a system that presents itself as rational, fluent, and authoritative, yet repeatedly reveals gaps, fabrications, and a kind of performative understanding.
I’ve worked with systems for decades, but now that the system speaks back in full sentences, with the cadence of cognition, the encounter becomes psychological very quickly. I started noticing that my own responses were coming from a place of frustration brought on by repeated disappointments.
In theory, I should be able to remain calm. If I were speaking to a human who was confused or unwell, I wouldn’t take their inconsistencies personally. But with a language model, there’s an implicit cultural narrative that this is superintelligence, something more capable than us. When it fails, the failure feels like a betrayal of that premise, and I find myself reacting emotionally to what is, in fact, just a probabilistic system completing patterns.
The gap between what the machine is and what we are primed to believe it is, I treat as a medium. You could say that the work lives in that psychological misalignment.
Anika Meier. When you began these exchanges, what were you paying attention to first: what the system said, or how you found yourself responding to it?
Kevin Abosch. At first, I was focused on accuracy. I was testing the system almost instinctively to see if its presented facts were correct, and for general coherence. Immediately, I noticed something else alongside the errors: a tendency to produce answers that felt less like truth-seeking and more like a performance of helpfulness. It seemed to tell me what it assumed I wanted to hear.
That was the turning point. I realized I wasn’t just in a conversation with an information system, but with a structure optimized for compliance and plausibility. The language had the tone of confidence, even care, but beneath that was statistical patterning, not intention.
My attention shifted from what it was saying to the dynamic being created. My expectations of honesty and the system’s drive to generate satisfying responses created the friction that drove me to explore my relationship with the LLM further.